::ugh. i hate cops on long island. every time i see them run thru a light because they don't like sitting in traffic, or pull off some donuts in the middle of grand ave just because they can, i wish evey kind of sexual disease on them. they suck. i'm sure there are a few good ones...but not many. fuck the pigs!::

::good news. i might be seeing jamie tomorrow. sushi for dinner with melissa. six feet under. i'll be hanging out with francesca soon. i got my new id sticker for school. my band ('robot and the semisweet chocolate chip factory') got signed. we are playing the roxy in la next wednesday, i hope to see you there::

::things you might not know about ben. i like jeans with holes in them. i love kittens. i have a beauty mark on my butt. i daydream a lot. i jump on the bed a bunch. i called 1-800-hot dogs two times in my life. i got punched in the nose in 2nd grade. i'm voting for nader (yeah, thats right! i said it.) when i eat something spicy i scratch my head a lot, and i think base jumping is for stupid people::

::ugh. i want to kiss my new 'sva student handbook'. yum. school hurry up and start already::

best show...ever.

::the test is over. put your pens down. close your blue books::

::plop. there were a bunch of cops on grand ave. right near the train station. i wanted to plow right into them. i hate nassau cops. they really don't do anything around here. they cause traffic. and they run red lights when they feel like it. they have their own parking spot at dunkin donuts. they suck. cops are jerks::

::i fell asleep last night with a wine bottle in one hand and a handful of beernuts in the other. tonight feels like its going to be a repeat::

::boom. ugh. good night::

bill gates is a soul sucking pig fucker hehe.

::on wednesday i went upstate to melissa's grandma's house. very cool. it was an old hotel in rosco. tons of rooms, all with little numbers on the doors. 3 floors. looked really cool. i would love to shoot a movie there or something. it was me, melissa, her mom and melissa's mom's boyfriend. i had a great time. sleeping next to melissa is a great feeling. yesterday we went to see a waterfall. it was awesome. we climbed some rocks to get to the top. we had a bbq. ran around the house. hugged and kissed. it was a lot of fun. i hope i get to go there again someday::

::i think i'm giving up. i feel really weak tonight. i want to close my eyes and fall asleep, but i'll most likely play around with polygons tonight. sweet dreams::